Assignment week 2 #3 Free Write

I have been a stay-at-home-mom for 9 weeks now. I worked for the previous 18 years. I had been told that staying home would be a hard adjustment. I was certain that it would be easier to stay home. How hard could it be to wrangle two little kids?

I used to have great time management skills. I used to wear nice, pretty, and clean clothes. Now I can't seem to get all of us ready and out the door before 11am, even if I start at 7am. Often times Jerry will come home for lunch at 11am and I still haven't taken a shower. I find myself wearing my lounge pants and some old T-shirt-dare I say maybe a maternity T-shirt-all day long. I guarantee you the shirt will have someones food or spit up on it. He wonders where is nicely put together wife went. To his credit, he doesn't complain about it often. I guess it's time to buy clothes that are not career clothes. Hmm...I suppose I should watch the show "What Not to Wear" so that I can find out what a person wears who stays home, and doesn't want to look like a total slob all day, but still needs to have functional clothes.

How hard could it be to reason with a 20 month old girl? Very hard I have found out. Today she woke up way too early from her nap. Then proceeded to cry loudly for the next 45 minutes but wouldn't go back to sleep. At the same time the 2 month old was crying because she wanted to eat. Why couldn't the older one just get the point that if she went back to sleep, she'd feel so much better when she woke up? It got to the point where I had to phone someone or start to cry myself.

These last 9 weeks have been the best, and the most challenging of my life. I am told it gets easier. Let's hope so. But I wouldn't trade this for anything. Already I think about how sad I'll be when the girls are grown and how much I'll miss all their baby stuff.